Today, I am sitting in temple for Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year.
I’ll be thinking about the wrongs that I have committed this year and praying for forgiveness.
I assume I have hurt people this year.
I am positive that I ticked someone off.
You know, for being too quick to speak.
And for that I am sorry.
Because sometimes I say stupid stuff.
And I am working on it.
I am working on being slower to act on impulse.
That is a tough nut to crack for me.
When I perceive an injustice, it is hard for me to shut up about it.
But sometimes, these are other people’s battles and not mine.
And sometimes the things we view as major problems are just obstacles to which we must adjust.
I’m learning that it is not my job to make everyone around me change.
I am trying to be more loving (and tolerant) towards the people who are the greatest blessings in my life. I need to thank the person who always takes my morning phone call; the person who dances with me on her driveway and brings me baskets of pears fresh off her trees; the family member, with whom I don’t seem to speak the same language, but I like to believe would be around for me if I ever really needed help.
I am trying to be more mindful of the sick. There are people around me who have been struggling, either physically or emotionally. Or both. Because, while writers may be willing to admit feelings of overwhelmedness in the blogging world, it is sometimes harder for people in real-life to share when they are melting-down. I am watching for signs, so I can be a more supportive friend.
There is a lot of symbolism regarding Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur.
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Tomorrow, I will wander down to the Erie Canal and drop little dried flower petals into the water as I speak my transgressions aloud.
That’s right, I will admit to all the things
that I have done wrong.
Because Jews are encouraged to make amends with anyone we have wronged and to make plans for improvement during the coming year, I will also bring a list of things with me: action steps — people to whom I need to apologize as well as thoughts on how I’d like to live my life differently in the next year, 5772.
I will say these words:
Who is like You, God, who removes iniquity and overlooks transgression of the remainder of His inheritance. He doesn’t remain angry forever because He desires kindness. He will return and He will be merciful to us. He will conquer our iniquities, and He will cast them into the depths of the seas.
From the straits I called upon God, and God answered me with expansiveness. God is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? God is with me to help me, and He will see my foes.
And then I will shake out my pockets, symbolically removing all the old stuff. The lint and the crud that accumulates in the littlest nooks and crannies, so I can start fresh.
Rosh Hashanah is all about making peace in the community and striving to be a better person.
So each year, I try to be a little bit better.
Later, I will come home to dip an apple in honey and wish my family a sweet year, filled with health and peace.
I wish the same for each of you.
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Now for a minute, pretend you are standing beside the water with me. What is one little thing that you would like to change about yourself to be a better person?
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